My name is David Matzenbach, and I am a neophyte, or a new member of the
Church who has completed the RCIA process within the last year. A mere 12 months
ago, I was sitting where you are today, probably mulling over some of the same
questions and searching for the same answers as most of you. So when Susan asked
if I would share some thoughts on my still young journey, I agreed in hopes that
someone in the newest class could relate, and maybe find something helpful for
their own journey.When I began coming to RCIA, many people were surprised to find that I was
not already Catholic. You see, I had been attending church at St. Paul for over
15 years.
To make a long story short, I married a good Catholic girl after college and
agreed to raise our children as Catholics. Using the term "agreed" is
probably giving me too much credit. I would never have considered raising my
kids as Catholics, and my wife would never have considered anything but
Catholic. Obviously, she won. We even sent them to school here at St. Paul's,
where my daughter Ashley is now in 7th Grade, and my son Christopher has now
moved on to high school at St. Charles.
So I reluctantly made that concession, however, I was convinced that I myself
could never find meaning in the strict rules and the seemingly routine rituals I
observed. I knew there were a lot of good things about the Catholic Faith, so I
decided I could tolerate it, but that it would never be my true spiritual home.
I was raised as a United Methodist, and I was perfectly happy with my religion.
I saw no need to change, especially to something so drastically different as the
Catholic Church.
But the Lord works in mysterious ways and in his own time. After a little
while (15 years), I began to feel a need to belong to something - even if it
wasn't my idea of spiritual perfection. Everyone I knew and could relate to
spiritually had a distinct identity, a set of core beliefs backed up by a living
entity (their Church) -- in other words, a spiritual home. Through time and
distance, I had drifted away from the spiritual home I knew, but for some reason
I was not allowing myself to move into the spiritual home by which I was now
completely surrounded.
That's when I began to see notes in the bulletin about coming to RCIA - to
simply learn about the faith. No pressure, no commitment - just come and listen
and ask whatever questions you may have. How could I pass up such an opportunity
if I was truly searching for a spiritual home?
As one session led to the next, I was surprised by the things I was learning.
I learned truths that dispelled the usual myths and misunderstandings about
the Church, things like praying to saints in lei of praying to God, worshiping
Mary, the unfounded anxiety about reconciliation and penance.
I learned about the scriptural and traditional foundations for the Church's
doctrines and the liturgy. This was especially meaningful to me, and I have
found an abundance of additional resources outside of class to further my
understanding of these roots. If you have a need to understand these things, I
would highly encourage you to seek out these additional resources to help you in
your journey. There is only so much Susan and her guests can cover in class, and
there is so much excellent material available to help answer your toughest
questions or curiosities.
I learned about the real presence of Christ in the Eucharist, and how this
gives us a chance to be continually renewed with His spirit in our lives.
All of this helped me understand the deeper meaning behind the things I
previously saw as routine. I found that if I took the time to learn about the
real meaning and the history behind each part of the Mass or any of the Church's
doctrines, I could not find anything to dispute. It all just made sense.
Most importantly I learned about being part of the body of Christ - the
Church here on earth, and how each and every one of us are cherished and loved
by God. I came to ask myself the question: If this belief is at the center of
the Church, how could I not find it to be a true spiritual home?
And I could see this belief being modeled by all those involved throughout
the RCIA process: Susan, the team members, our sponsors, the priests and
deacons. They all took such care to extend themselves and to share their faith
in an effort to help us find our own.
In time, I've come to realize that I did not have to abandon, or demolish my
previous spiritual home to move into my new one. Instead, I've found it to be
more of a room addition project. I've added several rooms in order to have space
for some things that were left out.
In the short time I have, I cannot begin to express to you the impact this
process has had on my faith life. I could only summarize it by saying that I
have many more avenues to realize and reflect God's presence in my life than I
had ever imagined.
One of the friends I made during the class came from a situation very similar
to mine, except he had been attending and involved in the Church for over 25
years. I jokingly told him after the Easter Vigil, "Greg, I guess we're
proof you CAN teach old dogs new tricks". His answer to me was "Dave,
it could be that, or maybe we're just slow learners".
So in closing, I'd like to say no matter your background or circumstance,
you're never too old, or too young, or too anything, to learn what God may have
in mind for you.
Thank you for your time, and may God Bless you in your own journey this year.
David Matzenbach